The Truth

The truth is I am a very, very jealous person--always have been, always will be. I am an only child what can I say? What's mine is mine and well, don't mess with it. I never wanted brother's or sister's (not that I was going to get them, lol) because I didn't want to share my parents or their attention with anyone else. Then I got married and had children, um, hello, what was I thinking? lol I learned to share, a little. I also learned that there are people out there who have had to share all their lives and that I am very lucky for what I have and have been given. I will be the first to tell you I am a spoiled brat, but I will also be the first to tell you that I am grateful for everything. I am not selfish and I would give you the shirt off my back if you needed it. But don't cross me because I can be vengeful and you won't win. My friends are the best and know who I am and how I am and love me regardless and they back me 100%--you don't want to cross them either because again you won't win :) I have learned the hard way that there are very few people out there that I can trust. Just when you think you can trust someone they go and stab you in the back--but keep coming back trying to be nice to you, I just don't get it. Either like me or don't, but don't pretend, don't be fake. I can be caddy and bitchy, well because I enjoy it--but I am also loving, caring, understanding, honest, a good listener and a good friend. But once you breach my trust it's gone forever. My family means the world to me and I would do anything for them (most of them). It is really sad when drama and people who don't know what they are talking about come into a family and start twisting truths and spreading lies and ruin a good thing, but I guess it happens from time to time and there is nothing you can do but move on. So, that is what I am doing, moving on. I needed closure from what had happened a couple months ago and I got what I needed today. My cousins girlfriend informed me (in a round about way) that they (I"m assuming her and him) were done with me and I was out of their life for good. That' fine, except I will never be out of their life "for good"--I am HIS family and we will cross paths again at some point--probably OUR Grandparents funeral. Like I said before, blood is thicker than water. I know the truth and the people in my life that matter know the truth and that is what is important. So, I'm closing this chapter and moving along....finally.