Amused

I'm not sure why I let things get to me the way I do, but I do. That's just me Iguess. I was going to write someone a long probably not so nice e-mail, but instead I thought I would write here, I find it's probably a lot less confrontational, but yet I get my angst out. Afterall that is what blogging is here for right? To write about what's on your mind.

Well, I have a lot on my mind--and until recently (today to be exact) it was all good stuff, like getting organized, fixing up the house, hoping and praying Cody makes officer, trying to figure out a way to be together as a family sooner rather than later--all that good for you-soul-searching-kind of stuff. Then I started e-mailing back and forth with Amber (remember her from a few blogs earlier) at work today. It started out totally work related until I mentioned wanting to hand over this project we are working on to someone else. She asked me why, was I leaving the mailroom, because unless I was we were stuck with this project. I said no, not leaving the mailroom, leaving CT. And that opened up a hole new topic of conversation that wasn't work related.

I should have known better, because I knew her well (we did spend every waking minute together for 3months) and just ended that topic and moved back to work--but I didn't. I won't bore you with details, but it went back and forth and she told me that she was no longer dating my cousin (Tom) and was dating other people. She hadn't seen Jess since they went and got tattoos together. She rarely goes on myspace anymore (which I know for a FACT is not true) she wasn't going to pretend to want to marry Tom just to be friends with Jess and that she has been hanging out with her "real friends"--fine whatever. But then, here's the kicker--the ah ha! The moment where I get to say "I told you so" and I will copy and paste it here:

"yes we are, we're the only ones who knew about tom. Hopefully now he knows. Or hopefully he does. If not, he will find out the hard way. I am kind of sick of him again already lol it doesn’t take much hes just not my kind of person " "I don’t consider tom anything more than a friend. That’s it."

What she was referring to by saying we were the only one's that knew about Tom, was that we were the only one's that knew she wasn't in it for the long run that it was just a fling perse nothing serious. I tried to tell them that when we had are big blow up but no one listened to me, thought I was lying and making things up to make her look bad, so to all of that I say, I told you so.

Moving on--I don't really care about any of that--I mean it irks me and pisses me off, but whatever, I'll get over it. What really bothers me is that she said that she barely talks to Jess, yet Jess is all excited about me moving now. How do I know this you ask, I have my ways :) Which means, Amber must have told her--don't lie to me, if you are still friends and still talk and hang out then fine, that is why I removed myself from the situation to begin with remember? I'm not telling you anything that I wouldn't tell them if they asked, I have no secrets, so what you are doing is completely childish--move along now.

And to Jess, who says "Good Get Out"--I will, don't worry. I'm done dealing with you and your drama and bi-polar-ness (you should have that taken care of before you have kids) But you will never be rid of me--I am family, I was here first, LONG BEFORE YOU, so it doesn't matter where in the USA or the world I am, this is MY family NOT YOURS remember that.