So Sleepy

I could fall out of my chair and sleep right now--but I have way too much to do before that happens. The kids are at my parents house spending the night, so I thought I would take this opportunity to organize my life, LOL!!! That's right, I think that I can organize this chaos in one quiet evening--HA HA--that makes even me laugh!!! I never use to be this un-organized. There was always 'A place for everything and everything in it's place'. I'm not sure when I lost control of that--I think it was somewhere between holding my first born every second of every- day to shuttling them both all over God's green earth to every possible activity and event that they can attend. Time goes by entirely too fast! In the blink of an eye my baby is 7-years-old and in 2nd grade--a gifted athlete and too smart for her own good. And my littley guy, who beat some strong odds as an infant and fought to stay here even when we didn't think he was going to, is 5-years-old and in Kindergarten--also a very very good athlete and also too smart for his own good! It's nights like these when I have a million-and-one-things to do that I stop and daydream and try to remember a time before children--a time where Friday nights were all about going out all night-and sleeping in all the next day until it was time to go out again! A time where I wasn't responsible for anyone but myself and even that was pushing it :) A time that seemed so much simplier. And even though my life is chaotic and un-organized now, I wouldn't want it any other way. I am truly a lucky person to have the family and friends that I have and to have the husband and children that I have--I believe that without great friends and a loving family you are not complete, your heart is not full and you don't really know the true meaning of love. So, my friends and family, on that note I am going to get back to the task at hand--will it ever get done and be organized? Probably not! But, at least I tried and had a good daydream in the process!

Ever Have....

One of THOSE days? Well, I wasn't having one of THOSE days until about 5min ago! I had planned on getting the kids from the bus, going to Skyler's soccer practice and coming home, giving tubs feeding dinner and going to bed. NOW, I have to rush to get Skyler, take her to CCD (which I just recently decided she was going to go to--duh!) which is from 4-5p then have her change in the car in route to soccer which is from 5-6p then come home, hope Gage isn't mad that I didn't take him with me and find something to cook for dinner! I know, I know, I brought this upon myself! So now I am overwhelmed with how rushed I'm going to be. Oh well, such is life when you have children I guess!

Irritated!

I am so irritated right now I could scream! First, Gage's school tells me he can't come back until he has an updated physical form sent to school. Um, HELLO--I brought in an updated physical form in JUNE!!! Not my fault your office staff is incompetent! So, I call to see what I have to do to get another form filled out. Yeah, I was told that he has to be seen by the Dr. AGAIN so that he can be re-evaluated in everything he just did in May. FINE! So, I call to set up an appt and the stupid women on the other end tells me that he can't have another physical until NEXT MAY because he just had one and the Navy wont pay for it. WHAT?!??!?! ARE YOU F*&%ING kidding me?!?!?!?!? Now I am in tears and call Cody :) He calls the appt line and tells them what just happened. I think the stupid woman that I spoke with is going to get fired :D All I have to do is go in tomorrow and drop off the paper that needs to be filled out and they will get it back to me within 72hrs--cool! Cody is also going to call the school tomorrow and find out why it's now my responsibility for thier office staff's stupidity :) In the middle of all this my front door opens and I think it's one of the kids or my cousin coming home from work. NOPE--it's Thomas, the neighbor kid. I just look at him like 'now is not a good time, for your own safety you should leave'. He is now touching my chachkies (sp?) that I have out for Halloween--NOT o.k. Then I look and he is IN MY REFRIGERATOR!!! And the rest of the nieghborhood kids are in my dining room sans my own children. I put the phone down as calmly as possible and said to them GET OUT NOW!!! They proceed to tell me they are hungry and thirsty--WTF? They have homes that are two steps from my house, GO HOME! So, needless to say I'm a little stressed out right now--but my friends Jamie is coming over and bringing Recovery Room so everything will be alright :)

I Really Hate......

That people think that because I'm not in Hawaii with my husband that something is wrong with our marriage. NOT TRUE!! Here are just few, well maybe more then a few, reasons why I wanted to satay here.

1. I haven't heard good things about the school systems. Yes, there is private school, but I AM NOT paying $3,000 or more to send a 5 and 7 year old to school. Yes, there is homeschooling, but if you have met me then you know that is NOT an option. So, all that is left is public schools and I AM NOT sending them to a school where they get bullied everyday because they are not Hawaiian--or where they are going to have to repeat grades when they come back stateside anyway because the education systems SUCKS!!!

2. My husband is going to be gone often so why would I want to be stuck on an island with people I don't know when I have my hole family and all of my friends here? I don't want to make anymore friends, I have plenty, and they are not caddy, bitchy Navy wives who cheat on thier husbands while they are out protecting and serving our country!

3. My children are already established here, as am I. I grew up here, I am familiar with the area. I have a great job, we bought a house in a great neighborhood--I would be stupid to give it up.

I guess that is all I can come up with now. But my point is, that just because we are a military family and I didn't go with my spouse to his duty station doesn't mean that there is something wrong. Are we happy? Yes. Are we in love? Very much so. Is it hard being away from each other for long periods of time? Absolutely! But we decided a long time ago that we have children now and they HAVE to come first. So, if that means living apart for the next 3 years so that they can have the best education and the best lifestyle possible, then that is what we are going to do. Someday they will be grown and out of the house and Cody and I will have plenty of time together then. And if you think about it, it's really not all that far away. So, please, don't assume that our marriage is falling apart or that we don't want to be together anymore just because we live in different states--because really, all you are going to do is piss me off!

Thank you and have a nice day :)